ALL LIKE THE MANTRA I can't seem to get out of my head: as if as if as if.
There's a relativity factor involved in my mania that makes me want to see
the proportionality of all things as if they were examples. When my mother
tells me she's sorry I have become a Satanist (she knows she's not overreacting) and she prays for me every
day, then I all the same tell myself
as if she gave a shit. Uttering that structure defuses it as if it
hadn't happened. As if there were a war
in Vietnam. Poof!
It's easy enough to kill if you get it through your head you're just a tool
in the hands of a superior superintelligence.